Life

My youngest daughter turned four years old yesterday.;') I still cannot believe it has been four years since she came into my life. It seems like just yesterday I was pregnant with her.;')

When I was growing up I never truly understood what my parents meant when they would say, "time flies." I guess as a kid time seems to stand still. I remember it felt like FOREVER for big events like my birthday or Christmas to come. My mom and dad would always tell us that time was flying, but for me it just didn't seem like it at the time..

I think I felt that way until I finished with school..Then time started to speed up, lol! I had no idea then what things were in store in my future. I was married at the ripe age of 19, finished college when I was 22, and had my first child at the age of 23. I am now 30 and I have 3 beautiful children..It seems like just yesterday I myself was the age of my oldest daughter. I have vivid memories of when I was 6yrs old..Where does the time go??

I can now say that I truly understand what my mom and dad used to say when they would tell me "time flies." Now, I am on the opposite end of the spectrum.. I want time to slow down, I want it to seem like FOREVER for each birthday to come around and for each Christmas to pass. However, that cannot happen. ;') I guess it is true what is said, "cherish each moment that you have..." I am SO grateful for everyday that God blesses me with. Everyday that I have with my family is a gift.:) I am sad to say this, but I kinda lost site of this yesterday..I was having a rough day with all of the kiddos and I lost my cool with my girls. In retrospect what I freaked out about was really not that big a deal..I got so mad that I took away some of the toys Santa left them.:( Not one of my finer mommy moments,LOL! After I gave myself a "timeout", I felt REALLY bad..However, I couldn't just reverse what punishment I had enforced..There was some justification for what I did..I think I went a bit overboard though..I told my girls that in addition to taking away their toys, I would also cancel the birthday festivities planned for both of them..My oldest daughter's birthday isn't until May...Okay, okay..I know, I am awful!!:( I am happy to say that I gave the girls a "second" chance to redeem themselves and we did end up celebrating..:) Now, the question is, How do I return those beloved toys and not diminish my authority..:/ AHH, the challenges of being an imperfect mother, lol!

Dear God, please forgive me for failing you yesterday..I am so sorry for the way I acted. I truly NEED you in EVERY aspect of my life..Thank You for the reminder yesterday.:) Without you I am a horrible failure! Thank you for your unending love, grace, and mercy that is renewed everyday!!

So, yesterday my sweet little girl turned 4 yrs old!!! Happy Birthday sweetheart!! I know it may not seem like it now, but time really does fly!! Also, mommy thanks you for your forgiving nature..mommy loves you!!!